Decisions, Decisions.

How satisfying is it when you make a huge call deep in an mtt? And watch as the pot is shipped your way. Or when you decide to bring an umbrella on your way to work even though the sun is shining, and low and behold it's pouring rain come lunch time. 

One of the reasons I have always been attracted to poker is due to exactly this; decisions. Ever since I decided to relocate with Karl and enter into a new backing deal, this has been stripped from me pretty much. Why? Because I'm playing 180 man sngs on stars. They simple are not poker in my opinion. Karl insists they are the easiest game format to beat, I would have argued Rush On Demands (RODS) are, however you cannot argue your hourly will be higher in 180s. So ye, I sit there clicking buttons for a few hours each day, and hope that at the end of the day, the amount of $ in my account is > the amount at the start. So far it's going decent, up about $260 in 3 sessions. I would play exclusively Mtts, however with working full-time aswell, it is just not viable. I am a professionally poker dealer which I don't think I mentioned prior to this. Have changed my sleeping pattern slightly lately, due to the fact that playing after I get in from work just doesn't work due to the games loading to slow. 

The other kind of decisions which I'm not a great fan of are important life decisions. Like I previously mentioned I was planning on relocating, just one problem. Karl informed me yesterday, he was leaving for Spain..... Today. So ye that's 4 months ahead of schedule. He's going to live with his brother and girlfriend, and I'm not entirely sure on how keen I would be crashing that. We'll see how he says it is anyway. So with that, I got my form in the post yesterday to state whether I'm going to do second year in college this year. If I don't, it means dropping out of the system and paying a bucket load to get back in if I decide to finish. If I do go back, and fail the year, I will be sick. I could think of nothing worse than been in the exact same position this times next year, after missing out on a year of travelling and playing online each day from the money I've saved up over the last few months. 

Then there's the fact I have a girlfriend of two years who clearly doesn't want me to go away, but that is for another post, just need to decide whether to have toast or cereal for a snack before I go to bed?